Finally Home

Hello Friends and Family,

It has been awhile since I last wrote on here. Life has moved pretty darn quickly the last month. I can't believe that we are a week and a half away from October! Before you know it, it will be Christmas and then we'll be ringing in the New Year.

As I think about time flying by, I realize that I feel like I'm finally home. Time is whizzing by me because I'm not constantly looking behind me longing for other days. I'm also not looking ahead, longing for my future in another place. I am right here, in the everyday, trying to soak in every minute of it.

And I am, and in the process seeing the days fly by very quickly. I feel so blessed that God has seen fit to grant me so many blessings that I am so completely far from deserving. 6 months ago I was in the worst place of my life, not knowing how I could possibly make it through another year of my job. But here I am living life and loving it. I have been blessed with an amazing family of friends here, both inside and outside of school. I have been blessed by a terrific church and the blessing of the fellowship there. I have been blessed by my staff in how hard they work and how much they love on my everyday. I have been blessed by gracious professors who are allowing me to fix my mistakes. I have so much that I don't deserve.

Still at times I am discontent. But I think that is the way of life for a believer in Christ knowing that this world is not our home and so we long for something more. Also I still struggle with past pain and trying to understand myself in light of my circumstances. But I have no reason to fear or be sad as I know that no matter what, God holds me in his hand and even when I feel lost, he knows exactly where I am. He is truly the lover of my soul, though I don't deserve such a precious gift.

So I will strive to continue to live well in this life I've been giving and continually thank God for his blessings. I will stumble and fall, but I pray for the grace of God to help me get back up and lean on the only one who can get me through until I am Finally Home.

Amen